day 3 - 5-day fast

Wtf, I am up 2lbs. Fuck this. This is why food is such a bitch. My body reacts in the most fucked up way possible. But I guess I only have myself to blame, what with the disgusting binge yesterday.

111.5lbs, disgusting much? When I look at myself in a mirror I'm starting to see something like a cross between a sumo-wrestler and a body builder. God, I wish my shoulders weren't so goddamn broad, my thighs weren't so bulky, arms weren't so huge and my waist wasn't so thick

Didn't eat anything today except for gum and a small stalk of broccoli. I felt like just devouring the entire plate of broccoli laid out at the table during school lunch.



Why do I keep falling for the same people over and over again?
Why do I feel so alone?
Why is this all too much for me to handle?